Late merry Christmas

Sorry I am late on wishing you all merry christmas. I had tons of family all weekend so no time to get on. I just spent most the morning reading everything you lovely ladies had wrote.
So update on life.
I got my final grade in ANT101...worst class EVER Thank god I got a B and my GPA is still 3.62 so I just might make the winter Deans list??
Weight wise I have started to loss ALL of the disgusting weight from the last 2 weeks I am down to 145 this morning. I think I did very well on christmas day also. I am praying that my kids eat the rest of all the homemade goodies on the counter today. hehehe.
So my hubby me and a bunch of friends are going out of town for new Years I have this way cute white pants I want to wear. So I have been trying hard to loss weight. Since saturday I have been wearing this Curves Trimming Shorts in hopes to make my thighs and butt a bit smaller. The pants are a bit tight. also I think I am going to wrap my thighs in plastic wrap for a while on saturday before we go out. I am praying that works. I dont know I have never tried it before. So I will talk to ya all later take care and stay strong.

I got nothing

not sure why I am even posting I have nothing good to say. I have gained 6 lbs in the last two weeks and really I have no idea how it happened. I really was not eating much or drinking more than usual. Weighed myself this morning and luckily I weight the same as yesterday. I am not going to post the number because if i see it i might start crying again. I got this really cute white pants to wear on new years they are a bit tight so for the last two days anything that goes in my mouth I purge right after. doubled up on my colon cleansers and have been doing squats and lunges and marching in place as much as I can. I really want to wear those pants.
Speaking of new years me my hubby and two friends are headed out of town for the night we are getting away and partying with a group of my hubbys friends he works with. it is going to be cool. I get my hair cut on the 28th nothing dramatic I really love my long hair I just need something done with it. I will post more again hopefully before christmas but cant promise anything.

I dont know why i bother

So let me start by saying sorry if i sound like an attention seeking whore or a whiner but damn if it was not for run or sam I would have no comments. Which I am SO thankful for, but I realize I only have 30 followers compared to a lot of your 100 or so but come on. when i post especially pics a comment or two would be nice. and if you have never commented before please do not read this and rush to the bottom just to make me feel better I am on the verge of just deleting this damn thing and bottling up all my emotions and psycho thoughts and just dealing with them like i have done for years. Shit i have had an ED before the net and bloging was invented. I have not died yet and unfortunately dont fore see it in the near future. sorry I just am sick for checking every day and never having a comment.

BYE

FML!!!

Good god i suck. and all there is to say is FML!!! So between last night and this morning my life has gone from shit to complete and udder SHIT. Last night my hubby took forever to come to bed and then when he walked in the room he asked why are you taking pics of yourself have naked? I was like what?? he said yea I was going though your phone and found some and what is up with you taking one of your back? so quickly I was like oh I was going to take random pics of myself one day to get you all worked up and then take one completely naked to get you excited. Ok he so knows better than that that shit aint me. When I posted pics of myself on here I used my phone I had erased them from the phone but forgot to erase them from my send box OMG how could I be so stupid I mean I was not naked or anything they are not sexy pics but he is a freak about shit like this. I cant tell him the real reason either so now he is treating me like shit I guess is thinking I am having an affair or something GOD.
Then to top of my effed up life I now know why I could not loss any weight last week up Aunt flo came to visit god I hate her. some day I hope to either get insurance and get a hysterectomy or save up the money for one. I want one of those more than I want lipo lol.
So now I will have to spend lord knows how long proving to my asshole husband that i am not cheating on him that i love only him and I dont want any one else. fuck all might I cant take this bull shit. I am so stupid some days ggggrrrrrr

Nothing new sice last Post and Pictures

So not much is new other than it is FREAKIN cold were I live. it was about -12 at my house this morning. bbbrrrr I wish it would start snowing so I can start going snowboarding I am really looking forward to that this year since my twins are getting much better I can enjoy it more also. So I woke up to the puppy freakin out in the kennel wanting out so I did not weigh myself when I got up this morning will weigh in tomorrow and post.

It is offical I am once again the fat friend

So not the best weekend for me. I posted friday how my one friend was getting rather large before she got her gym membership and started dancing. I guess I just let myself go a little or just did not realize I was getting fatter. So friday night I texted my friend that had just had a baby c-section in July that has been working out like a dog also and she weighs 155 not bad for having to wait almost 2 month before working out do to her c-section so yep I am the fat friend...

I got really sick yesterday afternoon thank god or lord know how much I would have ate so I didnt do measurements or pic but did them today
Weight: 143.8
Waist (right across my belly button): 30 (stomach still a bit bloated from being sick I know it is just an excuses sorry)
Thigh Left: 22 Right: 22
Hips (right across widest part): 37
Calfs Left: 15 Right:14
Upper Arm Left: 10 1/2 Right: 10 1/2
I have loss a few LBS this week but game on my friends I cant do this any more. There is no more stilling still for me if I can move some part of my body I will. Pics below have a great day all.

Day 2 and am still fat

So this mornings weigh in was 144.6 better than 146.6 from the day before. Total cals from solid food yesterday was 684. Today was not so good. This guy at work made homemade cupcakes so I ate one to make him happy. But that has been it so far. I think I am buying salad tonight fixing my fam grilled cheese sandwiches and tom soup and I will eat salad and maybe some soup.
I wanted to die today...I had a friend that had actually gained quite a bit of weight. Not that I was happy she was fatter than me...ok wait I was but she got a gym membership she works like 2-3 a week and started "bikini" Dancing not striping and today we were at coffee and she was bragging about fitting into her size 1 holsters again I have to shimmy jump around and lay on the bed to fit in my size 7. Any ways I looked at her and she has gotten REALLY skinny again OMG I am the biggest fattest nastiest person on the face of the earth right now. I swear I will be skinny SOON I cant take much more. I am so depressed right now!!!

Day 1 of Winter Challenge

So first off sorry I have not been around much honestly I think my fat ass should maybe just stay away!!! So it is the first day of "Petal in the Winds" Winter Challenge. Here are her rules...
1. An 800 calories per day maximum 2. For each 500 calorie increment that I exceed my calorie limit by = 24 hours of fasting starting the next day 3. No red meat or Pork 4. No chips, bread, rolls 5. No candy 6. Drink 8 glasses of water per day 7. Follow weekday exercise plan if you want rewards 8. Follow 30 day Self challenge starting tomorrow 9. Post your weight every single morning, post measurements every Monday ( Waist, hips, bust, thighs), post a progress pic every Monday as well :) 10. Fast as much as possible on Sundays 11. Take multivitamin and calcium every day 12. Wear a smile and dress pretty every day 13. Do nails once per week 14. Start a chore chart and keep on top of things around the house Goals 1. Gain a lot of flexibility 2. Get in better shape 3. Six pack abs 4. Reach goal weight by December 31st 5. Thigh gap 6. Tighten the glutes 7. Be healthier 8. Get my life in order Cheat Days: 1. Christmas Eve 2. Christmas day 3. New Year's Eve 4. New Year’s day

Ok here is my version. I am not going to stay away from red meat or Pork probably should but as I have wrote before I eat dinner with my family at night so my children do not think eating is bad. I am not doing the 30 self challenge either I dont know why I just dont want to. I am not a nail painter so I will try and add something else beside that. and I dont take vitamin so that is out. I will however post my first measure means and possibly pics Saturday. I might do them every Saturday weekdays are just to busy.

So to fill you in I weighed in this morning OMG I am a loser! so update as of 2:15 my time
Weight 146.4 (Good Lord I wanted to die!)
If you count sunflower seeds as solid food I have had a hand full of those nothing else but coffee and water. Dinner tonight is 1 small pork chop 205 and 1 cup mash potatoes 237 and cup of frozen corn 132. I am still well within the 800 cal mark for the day. I did not exercise this morning (cause I suck) maybe can march in place while watching tv tonight.
Sorry this was so long if you read all of it thanks. OK off to catch up with you all.