Happy Halloween

Hope you all either had a great weekend or will have a great night tonight. I did my fun last saturday but taking the kids out tonight. Supper excited to try the ABC. I have worked hard all weekend on lowering my cals so I dont freak out and binge in the next 50 days. I hope I loss enough weight to look good in my New Years Eve dress. Here are a few pics of my hubby and I in our costumes. I blurred the faces cause we are from a small town and just really dont want my face on the computer.

Effing Hydroxycut

I am so pissed right now...So after reading about Angelina and a few others on here saying how their diet pills help them I decided to bust out my bottle of Hydroxycut that I got no results from this spring. So started taking them on Monday afternoon. Did not weigh in tuseday but did wednesday which was at 143 then I weighed in again thursday morning which was 146. WTF I even marched in place for 45 minutes wednesday night while watching American Horror Story and still gained 3 effing lbs. So yesterday I decided go go back to my Acai Elite which is not dramatic but does give me energy that I can feel and my weight has never sky rocketed on them. So took it once yesterday morning and then in the afternoon. was feeling pretty shitty and ate a few peanut butter cookie treat things could not get away from my hubby to march in place while watch project accessory so no extra calorie burning there and guess how much I weighed this morning 143.2 yea explain that shit. I am so frustrated right now.

So conditioning myself for the ABC diet that I will start Tuesday and I have figured out my punishment if I go over the cal count for the day, I will have to do that amount of either jumping jacks, crunches, squats, push ups ect. So basically what I am saying is if the cal count is 200 for that day and I go over 50 i will have to do 50 jumping jack, squats, push ups what ever. Maybe that will keep me from going over.

I am getting excited for tomorrow night I can not wait to dress up and hang out with my friends I will post pics!

New Page

So I started a new page it is called a new me by 2012. I will be very strict on myself and hope to see results soon. here is what I posted and I will update a little in my regular blog and on this page.

Here is the start of my new page.
****So I am done, I am not going to take it any more I will not sit here and cry about not losing weight I am just going to loss weight PERIOD!!!

Starting on November 1 I am going to do the ABC diet. I have printed a calendar and wrote it all out. if I do not max the cals for the day GREAT if I do I will exercise myself to death so help me god. I will exercise every morning and will devote at least 30 minutes a night to watching TV in a different room so I can march in place or something to burn some extra calories. My plan ends the 15th of December and having my 19 inch thighs and flat as a board stomach will be the best present I have ever had. Hell I might just buy a new pair of shoes if I can make it.

I am not going to post goal weights because for me it is not so much numbers on the scale as it is numbers on the measuring tape or the way my clothes are fitting me. I will keep a post on this page and in my blog. IT WILL HAPPEN or I will die trying I cant take it anymore. I hate feeling fat!!!

Angelina Jolie diet pills 93 lbs???

So as I was standing in line at the store last night I glanced at the magazine rack. On the front cover it said Angelina was addicted to diet pill. she is suppose to weigh like 93 lbs now. I googled it a little and one article said she was taking hoodia. Now dont get me wrong I could care less how much she weighs I a pissed because I cant find one freakin pill that does what it claims to do. I had great success with green tea tablets once. lost 30 lbs but that was at my HW and now I get nothing so tell me why they are working for her my first goal weight is 130 that is it just 10 freakin lbs and I cant even go there and she gets hoodie that actually works gggrrr sorry I am done now.

WHY!!!

So a quick update before I start my ranting ad raving lol

The twins party went GREAT. my sister took a few pics so as soon as she gets them to me I will post some. I am sure every little kids had a blast to and trust me there were a lot of them running around lol. I feel ok not to fat not skinny at all. tried on my costume that i will be wearing to the bar saturday and OMG is it short. I wish I was a bit skinnier in it also I think it would look much better and maybe it would not be so short. Hubbys costume came yesterday so we are set now i just have to wait which kills me cause I LOVE halloween. I get to be anything I want for a whole night! I have not realy exercised in a long time still have a bad cough, my hubby is getting worried about me but I am not turning blue and it has not forced me to quite smoking completely yet so i am still good lol it has tightened my stomach muscles a bit so i say what isnt killing me makes me stronger lol.

So on to my rant...What the hell is up with saddlebags you know the extra ass that sits on the side of your hips and works its way down to your knees I mean really it repulses me to no end. This will be the last time my ass is in these jeans till mine find somewhere else to be. GROSS GROSS GROSS and to top it off i did not even notice then this morning until i got to work so I am suck with them all day. Off to read bout you beautiful girlies talk later!!

Happy b-day to my Twins and to answer Janes questiom

It is my twins b-day today they are 8 years old. It has been a crazy ride so far and I am sure we are not done yet. Having children changes you but having 2 children at once insures you will never be the same again lol.

I am really excited to bring their cupcakes to school. I love doing that I think it is one of your "highlighted mom" moments. My mom was a huge alcoholic so doing something like that was out of the question completely for me and my siblings and then my b-day is in June so school was already out by then. All my childrens b-day are during school and after 6th grade I get a little sad cause I dont get to do it any more.

To answer your Question Jane, first there is hardly ever junk food at my house. Cookies, ice cream candy very rare. Seconds I just keep myself busy with cleaning and stuff so I dont think about eating. Also working a full time job really helps no one at my house knows I hardly eat. Dinner is very important for me to eat in front of my family though. I do not ever want to pass this on to my children. I fix dinner there for I can regulate what we have. I try and cook healthy foods low carb, and not alot of box items. Something that helps which I am not proud of is I am a purger. I hate it but it is my fall back plan all the time.

I just want to say thanks again to all my followers the comments and support are great I hate feeling alone and you girls are the best!!!!

WOW Sorry about the MIA

I am sorry about being gone for 2 weeks I did log on and read updates about all of you though. I have been VERY sick. Cant really exercise without starting to cough so bad I pee my pants. I am either really hungry or the thought of food makes me sick. but I have felt so thirsty and drink tons of water even in the middle of the night I will wake up and need water so I feel like my morning weigh ins are not right. really I have not weighed in everyday for over a week. I am starting to feel a bit better and am hoping that exercising will be something I can do soon. I feel so fat lately.


I have a huge weekend ahead of me. Wednesday is my twins b-day 8 years old...So I have to take cupcakes to school that day, then saturday I have rented the fun zone for my children's party 20-25 screaming children all jacked up on sugar for 2 hours. The only cool thing I see out of this is I have made it a costume party!!!

Other than just trying to survive not much less going on. Off to read your blogs from this weekend.

Great Weekend

Hi everyone hope you also had a great weekend. I was at hunting camp all weekend with the fam. Went on a few walks with the kids and dogs. Watch what I ate and relaxed. No phone tv friends drama it was great. I hated having to leave last night but kids had school and I have work. I am not sure if I have plateaued or i am building a lot of muscle but weight is still 140.8 has not moved. I think I need to go to more extreme measures and eat as little as possible and maybe even no meat till I drop more weight? I am off to read everyone elses blog...some times 2 days feels like forever.