140.6 I can do this!!

So shopping yesterday was good. Found a cheap dishwasher ($309.00) and cheap microwave ($200.00) Could have gone cheaper but wanted stainless steel. My frig is already stainless so since I need the other two things went with that. Of course Like I said before hubby is not Mr. Fix it so they are not hooked up or working yet lol.

Went to Ross for a few more outfits for vegas found my dress just need to figure out what shoes to wear now. Post two pics of my dress below. I like it

I have a million things I want to get done today, laundry cleaning, and would like to shovel some snow off the back porch I hate shoveling but I think of all the cals it burns just posted a pic of that below also lol The striped thing in the corner is a swinging bench we sit on in the summer. I think it needs shoveled. Oh and I also have to write a stupid english paper by tomorrow night. I hate english thank god there is only 1 week left of that awful class.

I bought some jello and 80 cal soup on hand from campbells yesterday also this is my food along with a bunch of veggies I bought for the rest of the week the challenge ends the 12th and I have to win I mean really if I do have an ED it should be very easy for me to win a weight loss challenge right?? I have been obsessing about that for weeks now.
Ok pics below.

It's Friday

Yes it is friday not that friday is any more special to me that say a tuesday cause it just means that I now have 2 days of different work. House work kid work, and the fight to not visit the kitchen 20 times a day. Our weather has been crazy in the last week I am sure we have gotten over a foot of snow it never ends here till like mid may gggrrr. Tomorrow I am off to the big city to buy me a new dishwasher. I am actually really excited I have not had one in like 21/2 years. My hubby is no Bob Villa tried to fix it once and ruined the floor in the process.

To answer a few questions. I work as the accounts receivable manager at a small business in the town I live in. I have to pace myself at work or I will get all my work done before the end of the day and then have nothing to look busy with lol..Also I have to wait for things like mail and ups so if I have nothing to do and they have not come yet it makes for a long day.

Dying to be pretty...I stalked your blog. I love meeting older people with eating issues I mean I feel for the young girls really i mean I was there 10-15 years ago so I know what they are feeling but when you are now a wife and a mom and live on your own your eating issues take on a whole new level of crap. I am now following all your blogs and look forward to reading your input about mine. I do worry about someone here finding my blog but (and as mean is this is) I doubt mean in this town have an ED and if they do it is COE. also not being a perfect LDS person (which I am not) in this town makes you bad a sinner even so I think that if certain people come across my blog they would never say anything because they would have to explain why they were blogging about an ED to start with. Not sure if that makes sense.

Not much more to write thanks for all your comments and thanks to everyone that follows me. I will try and post something this weekend!

I think I am a stalker

LOL I sit here all day waiting for someone to write something so I can read it lol. I look forward to coming on there in the morning. God I think I need a life or I need to actually work when I am at work. I hate days that read slow I think Monday is my fav day here cause I am rarely able to get on on the weekend.

So not much else going on. I am trying hard not to eat alot I have got to win or at least place in the weight loss challenge so I can have that extra money for vegas.

Wilted-Rose...Thanks so much for the great comments I got our costumes off of an Alica in Wonderland costume site lol.

And as also Miranda I love reading your comments thanks for always letting me know you are there!!

Hey

Ok sorry for my disappearance a lot has happened. The weekend of the 18th hubby and I got into a huge fight I was sleeping in different parts of the house and moved all my shit out of our room. Long story short I am a psycho jealous, insecure bitch. So we are starting to talk again and have decided to do the vegas trip by ourselves so that we can spend time together something we rarely do. I am looking forward to it. I booked the tickets today I was a little pissed cause the price has gone up about 40 dollars since we booked so late.
Weight wise I am at a loss. Last week due to all the stress of fighting and being depressed I bearly ate and guess what the scale did yep went up. I did not even weigh in on my challenge Monday cause I just could not face it. Then yesterday came the binge from hell
Half a small bag of fritos (chili cheese)
an apple
a cup of chicken noodle soup from subway
6 inch turkey on wheat from subway
2 cookies
and for dinner 2 fish sticks and fries.
I dont think I left anything out :(
So thinking I was going to punish myself and show myself the horrible damage number wise I was sure I had done yesterday I stepped on and WTF I lose a pound OMG no freakin way.

I am dead set on winning the weigh in now that my vegas trip went up in price I must stay focused an keep moving so I can burn off every nasty unneeded cal.
off to read all you lovely ladies blogs

New Swim Suite

So my new swim suite for Vegas came last night I have posted pics of me in it below. sorry the one pic is very bad. I REALLY need to do some sit ups and work on my thighs alot more I have a month before I leave so maybe if I work really hard I can look better and post better pics before I go. Scale this morning said 141.6 god I will never be below 140 I swear. Not sure if I am liking kick boxing class I think I spend more time trying to figure out what the hell the lady is doing and less time burning cals it is very frustrating and I end up getting really mad at myself!!!

Been a while

Thanks for all the comments I really can not tell you guys what it means to log on here and read them. it really helps a lot!!! Hubbys and my fight blow over we never fix anything or solve any problems we just stop fighting healthy I know lol...I did activate my phone thought about blogging on it but scared my hubby will find it and freak right the hell out!!!

So whats new??? Oh yea me and my best friend are not such good friends any more thanks to her abusive lying asshole of a boyfriend. He told her a bunch of shit like me and my hubby called her a slut and a liar and we told her to bring him out to our house sober(that is impossible) and we would get to the bottom of things. Well no one showed up and she texted me that she did not know what to believe. WTF are you kiddin me I how has been her friend for years, never lied to her and would do anything for her is having to defend myself BULL SHIT!!! so really we are just in an awkward faze now. and i dont even know if she is going to vegas with us and it was her idea.

Oh sort of good news my 130's was briefly lived lol...Sunday morning I woke up and weighed in (oh and yes still weighing in every morning) and the scale said 139.6 OMG I had to do it 3 times lol...then for some fucked up reason I ate 3 yea 3 discussing sandwiches for dinner that night??? and the sad thing was I really was not hunger and the 3rd sandwich made my stomach hurt so bad throwing it up did not even help. so Monday morn I was back to 141 and skipped my weigh in. I am trying very hard to loss lots of weight this week I did miss weigh in this morning cause of the damn dog.

Not much else going on I am off to read of your lovely words and caught up more.

Everything is up and down???

So hubby and I had a huge fight last night not even sure what started it or why it turned so ugly but I slept on the couch and will probably remain there for awhile and to make matters worse his mom and step dad will be here tomorrow. my house is trashed and I really just cant stand them. My hubby made some shit comment that he is sick of working so hard to give me the materialist life I think i need??? WTF are you serious I will admit I like things but fuck all mighty I get most my shit off ebay, clearance racks or garage sales. so now I think when my new clothes that I ordered from Venus.com (all sale items) and my smart phone (free with my upgrade) get here I will just send them back. I mean really if shit continues like this there is no fucking way I am going to spend 4 days in Vegas with that douche anyways so who needs clothes. and as far as my phone goes I have had this one for over 4 years why get a new one and pay the $20.00 per month data plan???

The only thing that is exciting is my weight I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 140.0 almost to the 130's I will be so happy that even an out of control fight will not get me down. I went to a kick boxing class last night it was pretty cool. I am stiff and just a bit sore but nothing to bad, I would probably be sorer but I kept getting loss and would have to stop and figure out what they were doing again lol.

Ok I am done bitching about my pathetic life is you read this thanks!